Nic-Squiggy

I guess it's down to personal use now, since nobody really pays attention to my Deviantart anyway. Anywho, I've been talking to some people, found a new friend, and shot some ideas around...I'm feeling relatively good... I still don't feel like a functioning member of society at times though, and I really hate it.  Though with these problems having been present throughout my whole life, I don't know what I would do if I solved them for once...I mean, today for once I feel happy, but it's such a foreign feeling that it leaves me with an uneasy feeling in my stomach. I wish it would rain more...I like taking walks in the rain.  Too bad I liv

First off, I'm going to say that I'm doing considerably better than the last update, I ended up having a roommate call suicide hotline.  I'm now in the process of finding a therapist...Wishing I could put my thoughts into words.  Wishing I could sleep like a regular person. My mind is a jumbled mess, and I wish certain things didn't remind me of certain people...because you can never truly "get over it" in some cases.  Then I start to feel bad, because I've done the same thing to someone, as another did to me.  It's not fair to the other party, but sometimes it works...but I don't think this is working.  Being on both sides has taught me a l

I'll be using this profile to write now, it will be personal, and it is mainly for me, ignore it if you will...I don't know if I'll get any art done, as I have so much work to do on myself before I can give in to freetime... Serious talk time;  Last night I had a...we'll say breakdown. (I say last night, though it was over 24 hours ago, and I've just gotten to the point where I feel like I'm recovering)  I ended up leaving my house, without talking to anyone, and disappeared for somewhere around an hour before anyone noticed, and then another couple hours before I decided to speak to anyone.  Now I've been thinking all day about how I can he